Current world minus the money

This idea has popped into my mind several times lately, but then I forgot about it again when another one occurred. Idea reoccurred today when I was watching the movie called Fast Five (don't judge, alright. It's easy on the mind). I thought to myself: "Damn, a lot of movies would have to change their plot if there was no money in the world." And so the idea returned into my head again.

Remember kids stealing cars is not a legit business.

I also remember putting some time and thought process into its direction but I always ended up at a dead end. It's a simple thought but I can't really get my mind around it easily. Money and its importance have been incorporated in our lives ever since we cried out of our mommy's womb. Even at that point where we didn't even know about ourselves yet, we already cost money. Now just imagine that your parents would just be given a free service. When they'd come into a drug store, people there would just hand them the diapers and baby stuff because they got a baby and are entitled to those things. Just like that. No one would ask anything and everyone would have what they need.

Or when you'd go to the grocery store. You usually go there because you need food. You need food because you're hungry and that food would simply be given to you. No one would ask for anything in return and you'd have your food. No need for money. Well, it wouldn't be called a store in that case. No idea what would it be called. Food palace? The more I think about it, more complicated it gets because we're in a system that's been around for so long, we can't even imagine how it would be if everyone just had thing.

There's plenty of resources and enough for everyone. For now at least, thing's are going downhill as we speak. The idea of everyone having something and no one being without anything sounds obscure at it is. Like an ideal world, or at least a better nuance of the current one we live in. Bam, suddenly a lot less people hungry in Africa for example. As said, there's enough for everyone, distribution is the problem because many there don't have anything of value which would give them the option to acquire things others have. And no one is going to give them enough of resources for free. Because that's just plain crazy and no one's wallet will get thicker that way.

Hm.. Then again, it's not really the money itself that's the problem, is it. There's still the factor of some people just wanting to have more than others. Taking money out of the problem wouldn't change all that much if I think about it. Someone would just take things (i.e. food) from someone just so they can have more and someone gets a piece of starvation in return. Well, this is a dead end.

Greed has been around since the dawn of man really. And I'm pretty sure they didn't have some top dollar to pay all those thousands of years ago either. Someone may say that even dinosaurs were greedy and killed a lot just so others couldn't get it. Sure, natural selection and all, but that's not exactly greed now, is it? They were driven by instincts and didn't know better because thinking was too new for that time. They just want to make more of on breed and those who had resources, had the opportunity to do so while others died out. Then they got wiped out and it was all for nothing anyway. Pity.

No, because they don't always know how to spell intelligent

But here we have people. Intelligent homo sapiens who know so much, understand so much and have learnt so many things no one ever imagined before. Still learning, expanding and making more of ourselves. Well, some more than others. So here's the question. If we're so smart and whatnot, why do we have to make things difficult for us. If we're so smart, why don't we simply fix things that are broken. Things that really need fixing and could most likely be fixed in a long term, given enough initiative.

I say again there's (still) enough for everyone and no one has to be without anything. Greed was inherited though evolution of man and those primal instincts are still present and always will be. But as intelligent human beings, we should also know better. I mean everybody, no exception. We're on this same damn boat together and if (I dare not say when) it stats sinking, we'll be in a great bit of trouble. Everyone would be the captain and we'd all go down with the ship.

Dinosaurs didn't think, they just reacted. We can think and react properly, not based on instinct. I think it would be about time for everyone to start practicing that. I realise it's not going to happen and it's wishful thinking, but the idea behind it seems nice.

I know I started writing about money and I got quite a bit off track. In the end it's just a matter of who has more and who has less. "I have more valuable paper than you, therefore I am better than you in everything," is what many believe in and it's sad. Sad but such is reality. No one picks which life will they be born in. Those who are hungry, cold and abandoned were just dealt very shitty cards when they were born. Same goes for their parents and so forth. At least I'm not aware of cases where someone from wealthy parents is born into a life of misery and poverty. The other way around is even less likely (maybe when they're using them as rent-a-womb service).

I can't complain too much if I'm honest, just being able to write this thing shows that I have a lot more than many have and should not say a thing. At the end of the day, we just have to comply with the situation we're in and if there's an opportunity to take a leap for the better, just take it. It just requires other factors to do so first.

Now why don't you just...

As if I have any!

As always, keep warm and snugly.

- Gi

Relations and ships

Ahh, isn't it lovely? February is over for this year and now March is in charge. And you know what that means? March brings a nice little thing called spring. Mmmmm yes, enough of this winter nonsense and snow everywhere. Granted is looks pretty but boy is it wet and relatively useless. But spring makes is all better. Birds return home, flowers start to grow and everything becomes lush with green.

Lush and wonderful

I mean just look at that photo, how nice is that. Granted it's not very spring-y outside at the moment, but there's still time. And you know what else spring brings? It brings love in the air. Right? Cheesy as heck, I know, but that's what I heard on the roads so it must be true.

There's just one thing I can't put together at the moment. I think, and please bare with me, there's something prior to the "love in the air" that happens. I say that because recently I've noticed that breaking up relationships is trending. By that I mean people around me are either getting sacked or they do the sacking themselves. In either case there's something going on and the result is the same. 

Some people get upset over it. Some close in and don't tell anyone pretty much anything. For each their own I say, I can't really say much as I haven't gone though any of these things. That by itself is pretty unusual but each time someone asks why don't I have a partner or seek one, I just shrug. Then I see these people who are having a hard time because their loved ones did or didn't do something. As I see that, I am glad that I don't also have those problems to worry about. I have enough of other shit out there and I don't have any desire to spend even more energy on things which should actually make me feel better and offer support.

Like I said, I don't have such experience of my own, but I can still observe other people and learn from their mistakes without making the same ones myself. Only this way I miss out on some details and most likely miss a pretty big part of the whole picture which leads to the end result.

I do, however have a pretty nice idea of a relationship with a partner that doesn't seem all that crazy in terms of asking for a lot. I mean, is it really necessary to be with someone who will dump you in the end. Does one really get tired of one another after a long time? Clearly it's possible to overcome that since I also know people who're happy together without any big issue. Sure they have their own ups and down and it can get rough sometimes, but I believe you can sort those things out though a decent conversation and reasoning on both ends.

I do not require someone who I'll be avoiding half of the time just because I don't want to face their whims. Or be glad they're gone for the evening so I can enjoy it by myself for a change. I would expect support from a partner, not even more worries. Of course those things are mutual and I would gladly offer support in return. It's one of those "I give you, you give me" situations. I would expect love, compassion and a person to talk to when I have to. Not someone who would be there because I gave the same things in return while I get nothing back. I believe everything has to be mutual in order to work.

Coming home on a bad day should not result in becoming even worse when someone decides to lay all their problems on you on top of those you already have. There's no need for that, not at that exact moment at least (there are exceptions sure). There is also no need to have pointless arguments over some trivial things. When I hear the reasons behind someone being mad at someone else, I wish with all my heart to change my role with theirs. If someone is upset so much about something trivial such as not getting an xy thing they don't need in the first place, then they're having it easy in their life. 

It's a lot easier to get upset and angry over other's actions, while it takes some energy and thought processes to understand why those things occurred or are still occurring. Everything can be cleared up to the point where both come to the similar terms. For that is requires sitting down and initiate a conversation.

If your face is showing everyone that something is wrong and you want them to ask you what's wrong, be a good sport and answer them. Else there is no point in having such an expression on your face and you make things a lot easier for everyone around you. It's difficult at times, I never said it isn't. Even that is a good enough of a reason to show character and speak up. It eases the tension on all fronts. 

Try it, you won't be disappointed even if outcome isn't as expected, in the end it's still you doing something to fix the problem.

No. Just no.

That's about it for this time around, next time I may even write about something exciting for a change!

As always, stay warm and snugly.

-Gi

How do they say it? Stick it to the man?

This is it then I guess. Time to make some changes in life are again about to happen. These things have been happening quite often lately. For a person who seeks stability and security in knowing what will happen next, these things aren't always that pleasant. But they sure feel exciting, if that's the word that fits there.

Things I plan on going though are certainly out of my comfort zone and perhaps that is why it feel like that, trying something I usually wouldn't do. As I've mentioned in the previous post, the easiest and most comfortable way is to keep doing what you're doing even if you're not doing what you want. Or maybe even dislike what you're doing. Putting up with that is still easier than to stand up and make some changes.

My mind always things that change is something negative, that making something differently will make things even worse and by not doing anything I at least know what I'll be stuck with. To see things differently, to make the reasonable part of my brain to kick in, that's when things don't seem to be as bad as one may think. I mean sure, change can make things worse, but on the other hand, why the heck wouldn't it bring a positive change. Situation is pretty grim as it is, so basically doing something different is perhaps a lot more reasonable as there is a greater chance of things becoming better and less chance of things becoming even worse. If things would be as they should be, there would be no need for a change. Right? I certainly think so.

If current positive-to-negative ratio is low, why not just cut the negative out of it a bit? That still makes the ratio better even if we don't get any more of the positive in. If I worry about work related things while those work related things don't really bring me any positives, why should I keep on getting the negatives without getting any of the positives? I'm not losing anything if I cut out the negatives, except the negatives. No reason to worry about something I get nothing out of.

Maybe my way of thinking isn't exactly right, but I tend to look at things in a way where I see what I get in exchange for putting my energy into it. Is my personal gain big enough for me to bother with it or should I just let it go. That seems to be happening a lot when dealing with people. For example if I'm invited somewhere, where I have to drive for a while and make myself look nice, does the feedback from that event make the trip worthwhile. Craving a social fix can sometime be pretty bothersome, but going to a social event with expectations of getting that fix is met with disappointment in many cases. At least in my case that happens often. Again, it's probably "it's me, not you" situation so I don't really get that much into that and just leave it as it is and move on. Some people are just not up to par with the way I look at things. And I say that with as little ego as possible, honestly.

What does that leave a person with? Well, not a butt load of friends and companions, that's for sure. But that's okay, one doesn't really need that many people around. Sure, there are those who need to have people around so that they get the loads of attention and confirmation from their peers. It helps with masking that person's insecurities and does no good in regards of personal improvement and overcoming those weaknesses.

What I think, is that a person should have a fistful of people close to them and those people to be an actual support and help with overcoming the difficulties. They should guide you, help you with discussing options and not making decisions for you. Of course you should do the same for them, but given the situation, you're most likely doing that already or would do it naturally as it is without even thinking about it.

That is, in my eyes, something worth striving for, that makes the trip worthwhile and ables you to fill those social fix gauges a bit more, than just some group activity with shallow and boring people.

Hm.. Looks like I digressed quite a bit once more so I better just stop and keep it at that.

Now lets go get myself fired, shall we.

Stay warm and snugly!

-Gi

Are options in life merely a cointoss?

I could start this by saying that we make choices at each footstep and deciding upon things is something we do so common it's not really worth of mentioning at a given point. Although that is true, there are still things we can't exactly decide upon at a blink of an eye. I can't at least, sadly, as it'd be pretty damn nice to do that and just get on with it. Done deal, move on.

I'm more focusing on choices we have to take and which can most likely drastically change course of our every day life. I am a man of routine for the most part, I like to stick to it, I hate breaking it or adjusting it as it angers me often if something unexpected interrupts the planned course of things, even if it's nothing important. Now there's a part of me which wants to break that routine by implementing some new things into the game or just rearranging the existing ones.

And then there comes a point where the change is so drastic or has such an impact that can cause the whole routine to change. Perhaps it's a welcoming change since I'm not always content with how mine plays out each day, it has certain elements I don't to keep up with, yet I have to as they provide me with necessities. 

There's the catch for many people I've met. Those parts provide them with means though which they can live out their daily lives. By now you've most likely figured out I'm talking about a job position or any other activity that generates income which is used to live from day to day. Nowadays this is considered a luxury in a way, because there's so many people who don't have any source of an income and live a difficult life because of it. I'm not going into the direction of why we have such a situation because no matter how much it's discussed, it's still a moot point in the end and doesn't make any difference.

Let's return back to the topic of making choices again. I think that no matter how bad the situation is, there's always options a person has to pick from. Granted, they're not always the best options and the selection might be bleak, but they're still choices. I don't want this come out the wrong way, but the thought of utilising a rope in an attic tends to give me certain hint of comfort in case everything goes down the drain so badly and that would become a valid next step (and last) to take.

But that situation is nowhere near yet, it's just an options after a long series of what ifs. What that is however, is an easy way out. Well, it appears easy at the moment since it's the one that doesn't really have to be taken and is easy to talk about. And so we come to the part about making those choices.

You have several options and you contemplate which one would be the best at the given time. So which one is the best then? When you have a seemingly obvious answer at hand, that's no problem. Depends on the type of a person you are. If you like security, you're most likely going to take those 20 dollars offered now than invest another 5 which might bring you 50 dollars later on. Immediate satisfaction is a powerful motivator, hence the 20 dollars now option seems appealing. But I digress...

Things become more difficult when the options aren't as obvious anymore. For example I've been given options on whether I want to stick to the workplace I am now, which pays poorly (if even) and take on some work which I don't really want to do (and probably leads nowhere again) in order to justify my position, which I'm not happy with either. What would that provide, is a sense of security (mind I say sense because after all this time there hasn't really been much of that at all) and it would keep the routine I'm currently in going. I think that would be the easier option to take, but probably not the best one. I'd remain part of the system I am now well familiar with and that's what scares me with this option. After all this time, I've been a witness to so much bullshit and lies and empty words, that even I'm getting tired of it (and I spend a lot of time online, granting me a pretty decent tolerance to that). So many things have been promised, said and so little has been done that I've lost all trust in the matter.

I was reluctant to say and give an answer at that point but was asked what would I want to do. Where do I see myself or doing what? Now that's a simple question I have not yet figured out an answer to. I do know I don't want to be doing what I'm doing at the moment, or perhaps other factors made me resent the work that's being done here.

I'm not sure about this one and it bothers me even further since I don't know if I dislike this work because of work itself, or because of the circumstances around them. Was it just merely misrepresented to me and I dislike it based on that? Am I good at it without even knowing because I have no motivation to give it a second try? I always say first step in fixing something is to find what's there to fix or where the problem lays. Right now, I can't be certain about that, could be a bit of everything.

So now the other possible option is to just leave those offers. Say 'fuck it' and try something completely different. Something I have a better chance of liking and doing it the way that's more suitable for me. Perhaps in 2013 and all this interconnectivity, one doesn't have to subdue the 9 to 5 routine anymore. Especially when you do things online for people around the world. For people who appreciate what you do, for people who you want to do it, because you know they'll like it and tell you so.

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I'm continuing writing this after a nice little walk, some conversation about the matter with a person who has been though this himself and it seems like this will be the next course of action. The decision has been made and on Monday I sure hope I'll get the ball rolling. There isn't a lot to lose and can mostly just gain things.

After that's done, I will have plenty of spare time again to find some other, more user-friendly way of income. Given enough luck and persistence, surely something will have to turn up. Surely. 

Till next time, stay warm and snugly!

- Gi

My "Hello world" blog post

Alright, I think this will be enough staring at the empty page for now. Time's a wastin'.

What's the point of this blog anyway? There's a lot of blogs out there about pretty much anything I can think of. Well, I think so at least, since I didn't bother checking it out. Let's just say there's no shortage in blogs or any such content nowadays.

So why am I writing this thing exactly? To be honest, I'm writing it for myself mostly. I realise that chances of these lines being actually read by many people are pretty darn slim. But it doesn't really matter. I'm doing this because I think it's a good way to put thought out of the head on some medium and make room for some other thoughts to form. Now if anyone actually does come by, they're encouraged to leave a comment or something, telling me whether I'm wrong or right and most importantly WHY do they think so. It's easy to say one thing, but it's not always easy to back that thing up with words and make sense of it. You can say this is a healthy way of a person venting by putting words on screen.

That covered the 'why' part, now for the 'what' part. What will this blog be about? That is a fine question a common person may ask but unfortunately I can't provide a specific answer. The vague answer will have to do I guess. It's going to be about various things or rather things I'm wrapping my thoughts around (hence the title(s)) at that given moment. This could be something I've had on my mind for a while, or throughout the day or just something I want to write down and hold on to the train of thought to see where it leads me. It's easier to keep track when you place the previous thought down and only seek the next one without the fear of losing the last one.
Think of it as a conversation with myself, because it's not easy finding people in person who'd listen for long enough or perhaps try to keep the thought process going. This is just easier to manage without getting disappointed.

If you happen wonder who is this person writing this? Let me just say you'll most likely figure it out though the course of my other posts. I think if you know and like how the person thinks, other formalities are just that, formalities.

This will be a wrap for the first post. My mind is a bit tired and this servers as a first step into doing something I decided to do a while ago but never really actually got myself to do it.

Here goes, ice has been broken and now on to more victories!

Stay warm and snuggly,

- Gi